Dreams vs. Reality

   What do you do when reality falters in the face of dreams that seem even more real? At some point my dreams have surpassed my own sense of reality. More faces and events happen than what I manage to do in my own time. Perhaps it is time to admit my own addiction.

   I, Sarah, am addicted to an interesting life. Comfortability is stifling, and I too often fight back with stubborn quietness. In short, I allow myself to suffer in mundane habits. It all becomes a spring for when my life starts its unexpected roller coaster. Even then, I struggle to place an improbable balance between the climax of the situation and the comforting calm of indifference.

  It is the habit of making mountains out of mole hills.

  Entirely my own fault.

  So I have settled on a compromise. To halt the static death of so-called reality and to reel in the dreams I have caught over the years. It is time to meet them past half-way.

  I have made plans over the years and it's time to finally execute them. There is no way I could life a life of "normalcy". The 9-5 or the average jobs out there in the economy. There are plenty other people who can do the job that I currently do, and enjoy the balance between that work and their lives. I like to invest my time differently.

  So I will live up to the promises and dreams I have wove.

  For although reality is the current situation, dreams are the inspiration and hope that drives us to try harder.

  Perhaps I have been living in the moment more often, and so I can feel how tangible the dreams are now. Their breaths tease me into an intoxication of excitement. Ghostly hands guide me through my dull-white days and my room to a state of organization and action.

  Reality is the state of the world and the beings within it. Notsomuch the state of the society and the people within.

  Invest in the reality of living rather than the reality of existence. We should be beyond the question of "What is life?" We should be focusing on "How do we live?" only to follow it later in life with "Why do we live?" (Unless you know your answer already.)

  How do we get from where we are now to what we perceive as possible? What do we need to change? Can we change it? How do we do so?

  My issue is that I have so many dreams that I tend to not know where to start. But in recent events, I have noticed that I do have the ability to make the changes in my life necessary to the development to the life that I want to live. Part of my difficulty is admitting that there are specific things that I want to do that I know would require very difficult changes. But I have the motivation now. What is left is the declaration of my intent.

  And this is something I need to meditate on just a tad more.