Many things have brought me to this point of freedom. One of them being the freeze on my education status. Yet that has not bothered me at all. The gained freedom of a driver's licence is even more liberating, but that does not let me escape from my own self. Not even the audition that I went to has not been the true key to this mechanical brain.
Since when has liberation been so binding? At this point I have finally realized that the restraints are not from society or the world around us. What holds me down is myself. All my work in the past has been done for others: school work for my teachers, and devotion to the stage for those who hired me. Do not get me wrong, we are all pieces to a greater jigsaw puzzle, and all work together in a community. But how can I best help everyone if I do not let myself with my own happiness?
I find love and happiness wherever I go. That is not an issue for me. However, finding that one thing that makes my heart and soul sing... that is what takes time. How can I claim my own life, if I do not support my own dreams? I want to be able to say, I did that. Not live vicariously through my friends and fictional characters. And I must make my mark.
So just to warn you, I'm doing this CD, and I'm getting my stand-up on!
And I'm going to do this no matter what.
