Thursday, August 5, 2010

Old Writing: What Belief Does to Us

On the count of three.
One... two... three...
FUCK THE UNKNOWN!
Say it again...
Fuck the unknown!

Do you feel better?
Good, but do you know why? Why do you feel so good? Is there a bloody reason why you wanted to tell the unknown, fuck you? I don't know either, but that's not my point.

My point is this: do you believe it?
Do you honestly believe in saying, Screw you unknown!? Well, do you? What did it ever do to you? Why are you harassing it?

In fact, do you even know how to believe? In this day and age of instant gratification, gratuitous information, and pure selfish egotism and individuality, do you even know what it is like to believe?

Did you know that believing and prayer can be one of the healthiest things to do when you are very sick? Some kids are able to overcome their cancer by believing that their cancer is something else eating away at them. Belief is a POWERFUL tool. It can cause miracles, but it can also be very overpowering. Ask anyone today about conflicting religions and fundamentalist groups. Those beliefs can become stifling and drown you. But recognize that belief is a tool that humans have used for centuries. Doubt me? Look at archeology, art history. There are traces of their beliefs in the stones, in ruins, under trees. Belief comforted us when we were weak. It comforted us when we were wounded. It spurned us on when we were frozen in fear. Belief is our rock when no one else would stand with us.

Religions love this! We like to be comforted so that we can still manage to live our lives to the fullest. Yes they create standards, but look at what else they are insuring. They grant some type of love, a legacy, respect from friends and enemies. Our beliefs define our lives and our deaths. Why can't we see the full 960 on it all? I think it is fine to question, but do we need to question ourselves down to the very last thought, or the very last cell? Questions can lead to answers, but they also lead to more questions. Are you really going to go in that damn circle again? How can you accept things if you always question them? Will you learn to actually be somewhat happy?

Honestly, I am a naturally curious person. That's fine. And I think everyone should have the right to question what is going on. After all, we want to know and learn about what's happening. But if those questions lead to questions for your entire life... do you really know how to relax. Do you really know how to let go? You can theorize and think as long as you want, but you won't know how to let things go until you tried.

Try to let things go. Try to accept the fact that you will be dead, six feet underground, or in an urn getting kicked around from generation to generation till that clumsy in-law or wild child knocks you down. Accept the fact that you got an F in your favorite class. But do not fail to learn from your acceptance! Did you stop learning when you got your job, or went to college, or were finally able to marry your love? NO! (At least you shouldn't...)

Let it go, let it go, let it go. Yes it's much easier to say than to do. But are you really going to carry around all that old guilt your whole life? How can you gather more memories if you have no more space for them? This isn't Harry Potter where you can remove your memories and keep them in the shelves of your library. And really, do you want other people to be so close to the memories that you try to hold dear? These memories exist for you. They are relevant to you. They celebrate your life. Learn to let go of those memories that haunt you. Format new memories with your new love to replace the heartbreak from the other person.

Memories just don't define who you are, there is also the lessons you have learned from life. These are the lessons that are ingrained in your heart, mind, and soul. These are the things that people get tattooed to their ankles. And guess what. Some of these are cliches. But think about it. Why are they cliches? Maybe they are cliche because they have been true for multiple folks, and they understand what the thing was about. Love is never easy. The best laid plans are made awry. You don't know what you've got till it's gone.

Believe in those things your heart tell you, and the whole you agrees with. Trust your gut, and believe in it. Believe in your mind to grow and come to understanding. Believe that your heart will find love and will learn to love well. Believe your soul to be free. Believe your body can be sexy. If you find the true power to believe in yourself, you can become a more enlightened person.

Believe in believing, and believe in what you believe in. Many people may not agree with yours, but you may find those who agree. With modesty, learn to believe, and approach life with a vitality that kids use by instinct. Just believe.

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This is my playground for thoughts and commentary of various sorts. Too often I find my mind clogged up with things that I want to share, but do not know how. I think a blog would be helpful to me, and provide a breeding ground for other thoughts of others. My work involves a large amount of analysis and processing. As an actress, I need the depth of a person and more. As a musician, I need the understanding of emotions and mechanics. As a stage hand, I need a sharp eye. As a leader, I need an objective and reasoning mind. With all of these labels, I go beyond what I know and learn more about others.

There will be a few blogs to go up quickly in the few days, for I have stored up a few pieces that I have written in the past few months. They cover a few topics, and tend to be a tad random. And then there is a bit of humor and I tend to be sarcastic at times. Can't afford to be too tightly wound up. 

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